730 Days Too Many

730 days since I’ve seen you. 730 + times I’ve thought about you. No, I haven’t seen you here on earth, but you come to me in my dreams. You come to me in my thoughts, you come to me through smells, when I see a cardinal, frog, or deer, and most definitely through the number 11:11. You come to me in my memories. You come to me through tears. Here’s to the rest of my life missing you. This day was by far one of the worst, yet, comforting days if my life. You took your last breath while I was racing up to your room I know to protect me. You protected me to your last breath. I love you forever and a day.

My original post letting people know my dad was gone is posted below. This was originally posted 11/10/20. I wrote it as I just laid on the floor of the guest bathroom at my parents. I felt empty, almost void of emotion because I still didn’t understand. He was gone. The shower ran in the background, for a long time. I just laid there on the cold floor. I watched the mirror fog up. Finally, I hit post. It was real. I stood up and looked in the mirror. This was my new life whether I wanted it or not…

“Last night my best friend took his last breath. My confidante is gone. My night owl is gone. My scary movie watcher is gone. My cake lover is gone. My cheerleader is gone. My listening ear is gone. My life is gone. My everything is gone. My world is gone. My father is gone. Right now I’m a shell of person with horrible emotions running through them. I am questioning everything. He was the BEST man in the entire world. He would always have your back even if you didn’t have his. He was a fair and honest man. He did everything in his power to make people comfortable. He loved to laugh and make people laugh. He knew the answers to every question I ever had. I hope to one day be half the person he was. I miss my daddy. I miss hearing him say, “Hi baby.” I’m broken. I love you more than you will ever know. Thank you for being my Dad. ❤”

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7 Responses to 730 Days Too Many

  1. Russell Bell says:

    Jim. My sincerest condolences on the passing of your dad. I lost my mom several months back and I know the heartache which never seems to go away. I was pleasantly surprised to see the Duquesne Hunky appear in my email, You’ve been missed. Take care my friend. Russ

  2. david.marks1@verizon.net says:

    He loves you so very much and is smiling as he sees your message – I believe!

  3. vickie brady says:

    It was so nice of you to share your story, thank you. Loosing a parent is a forever hurt. I lost both my parents, my mom in 1999 and my dad in 2005 and with each one passing it was just as hard for one as the other. My mom was not only my mom but by Best Friend, and of course I was daddies
    little girl. Even though its been many years with them passing I miss them each and every day and that will never go away

  4. A wonderful tribute to your father and as eloquent as he was. As I am getting up in my years I enjoy rereading your father’s past post as they bring back memories of a wonderful time of my life and a wonderful city and time to grow up in.

  5. A lovely tribute from a loving daughter to her father. You expressed your thoughts and feelings eloquently. Wishing you peace and comfort.

  6. blmaluso says:

    What a beautiful tribute. You have brought me to tears. It’s so hard to lose loved ones.

  7. bornyek says:

    I write this with tears in my eyes for the love you had for your dad. Love and consideration were learned from and shared with your dad. Thank you. If I had known then what I am learning now and had shared it with your dad, he would still be with us. I will share them with you. Here are two things that will improve anyone’s life. 1. Moringa – It stops my arthritic pain in its tracks plus other health benefits. 2. Ozonated olive oil, which I make and freeze into small cubes and absorb sublingually in my blood feeds the mitochondria of the cells oxygen, which in turn creates energy and many, many, many other things, it boosts the immune system, etc.

    I believe that I am experiencing a ‘Miracle’ with Ozone therapy as I am experiencing results that cannot be duplicated with modern American Medicine.

    Here is the starting point with numerous videos on Ozone Therapy.


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